Today is a Fine Day

After one and a half years, the Sat-off genes still can't get used to the fact that I have to work on Sats. Today however, is quite special. It started from yesterday where I felt a bit lost on what's next for my business. I am threading into unknown terrain. I went for a long run to clear my mind. And I was glad that it came to a conclusion that it is "normal" to don't know what to do next.

The Bible does teaches us that faith is something you commit to do before you see any proven results. And actions often come before guidance.

So, combining the two, I feel good knowing that it is ok to don't know what's next and it is ok to feel fearful of not knowing what to do. I feel good because I know that by striding the walk in faith, God will guide me throughout my journey.

So, work today has been fulfilling and good.

College Camp 2010

We have just finished the camp, which was on yesterday. I thought I would be exhausted with 15 hours of sleep over the past 3 nights. But no, I felt good today. Even managed to go for a concert and a night class today.

Looking back, college camp 2009 is where I fell; College camp 2010 is where I proved myself that I shall not be easily defeated. And I proved myself on that. I realized that when one wants to really do something, it's really no big deal no matter how big the challenge is. I came in this year with mixed feelings. Looking at this year's game plan, I thought to myself if I really did badly last year. The answer is no. Because most of the important games stayed intact. Did I not fight to be heard? The answer is yes, I did not fight to be heard. That's the lesson I learned from last year. It was not about commitment or whatsoever. It was about communication.

Ironically, that was the lesson that I taught to the students this year: fight to be heard! Haha, such irony!

I really enjoyed the time spent with the students this year. I'm really looking forward to meeting them again in GPS. They are such a joy to watch. The willingness to learn and the eagerness to mature is a lot to look forward to. There are some that I would personally hire if I had the chance. Unfortunately, there were a couple that were really disappointing. Those I hope would take something back with them. At least learn that not participating is also a choice. A choice to give up, a choice to continue to be at the current state, a choice not to let anyone in their lives and a choice to rot.

I'm glad that I had the courage to go in this year with full commitment, withholding nothing back from last year's fall. I feel good. Now it's time to make a decision on the business set up. I was brought back from Singapore for a purpose. It's time to make a full commitment to that purpose. I pray that I would have the courage and perseverance to push it through to the end. May God give me the help that I so need.